Wednesday, September 24, 2025

 

ESSAY - OLD MEMORIES, NICE, SAD, GOOD TO HAVE

BY DONOVAN BALDWIN

(Disclaimer - I wrote this in 2018.)

Still dark, and raining, as I sit in my travel trailer at a casino RV park near the Ohio river in Indiana. I hear the drip, drip of the rain down the wall behind me, and the pitty-pat on the roof.

Safe, and warm(ish) in my flannel shirt and PJ bottoms, faux fireplace pretending it's putting out heat, but looking fireplace-ish enough in the dimly lit morning.
It's funny how with all this "not part of my normal life", memories of so many other early morning strange places and odd times drop by and move on, pushed out by the next one.
In the rotation, I remembered early morning fishing trips with my father, along the Gulf of Mexico.
Didn't catch much except a love for sunrise over the Gulf... and the memory of the water rolling into the shore, heard in the darkness more than seen, although, if the moon was bright enough, or the sun starting to push a few fingers over the horizon, you could see the white caps of the waves.
Hot coffee from my dad's thermos, maybe a sandwich my mom had packed.
Odd, here in Indiana, remembering old Florida mornings from over half a century ago.
Nice.
Sad, in a way.
Gone.
Yet still around in my head and memories.
Nice.

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Sunday, November 26, 2023

 

HOT FLORIDA NIGHTS - A POEM BY DONOVAN BALDWIN

As a boy, 

Half a hundred years ago,

I lay sleepless, 

Shirtless,

Sweat trickling,

Sheets sticking to me,

The one window of my room open,

Old box fan

Droning in the corner.


I dreamed and imagined all sorts of things,

But never thought

To dream about a cooler place.


In Florida in the Summer, heat was...

And humidity went without saying.


So, each Summer night,

A few steps short of misery, 

I lay awake for hours,

Mind traveling along the corridors

Built by images made from

The books I read incessantly.


Later,

Girls and cars having been discovered,

And cars,

At least,

Conquered,

Hot nights became cooler,

Driving down Palafox Street

With windows down, 

Or,

Out to the Gulf Of Mexico.


Eventually,

Hot Florida nights included

Two A.M. feedings,

And the occasional rush

To an emergency room.


Now, no longer in Florida,

I have air conditioning, 

But...

Still often lie awake,

Sleepless, sticky with sweat, 

As the medicine works

To slow the progress of

The cancer within.


...Which the boy never imagined.


On nights like these,

My mind wanders up and down

Even more corridors, 

Including those built by more books,

And a half century of living.


No more chasing girls

Or driving up and down Palafox,

Or to the bay,

In the moonlight...


Except in my memory,

When I remember...


Hot Florida nights.

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